Stuck and depressed

I got back from KSA on Saturday, we went there for a week for Omrah. It was fine. But now that we’re back I’m bored and really depressed. I just sit around watching youtube videos. Since we’re not traveling this summer, I thought about taking really cool classes at Craft Land but my dad said no, he said that if I wanted to take any classes, I should go somewhere in Sharjah.He didn’t even let me finish the ones I already started.There’s aren’t any classes in Sharjah. And since he gave no reason for saying no, I’m currently doing the opposite of everything he tells me to do. I’m also thinking about coloring my hair blond or red. This is the only thing that would ease my boredom in Sharjah.

In the past, whenever I got bored, in my mind I knew that I’ll be going back to school, or college or something. Believe it or not, I actually love studying. But now I feel that I’m stuck and that I’m standing still while the rest of the world is moving. I got accepted to grad school, it starts in November, but dad is saying no to that too!! It’s only once a week from 6-9 pm cause people have jobs, kids, and lives. And my father is objecting on the timing!!! Whatever, I don’t care anymore, I gave up on that. I’m looking for an online school to get my graduate degree, or a baccalaureate degree in something else. There’s Hamdan uni, it’s new though.

I am also looking for a job, but I won’t hold my breath. My parents will only let me work at a women-only place and there are only a few of those and it’s really hard to get. I wish I could find a job where I can work online, I don’t care that much about the pay, I just need something to do.